Sometimes i don't even know why i started this blog, like what was really the point. And then i remember that here i can talk without restraint. I've decided i'm going to end things with "the boy". It shouldn't have started anyway and every time i talk to him now i feel guilty, at first i wasn't sure that's what it was. He was going to invite me somewhere, as a group thing, but things got mixed up and he couldn't. Anyway his girlfriend and a couple of his other friends were there and i couldn't even imagine actually going because he and I would know what happened and we'd be pretending in front of everyone that it hadn't.
There were two other girls that he cheated with and they weren't there either because his girlfriend didn't trust them and for the most part him and those girls weren't really friends. I don't want to be one of them and that is one of the very reasons why i will end this very short and uninteresting "fling" with "the boy." He's a very special person but i don't think i've ever saw him that way and i don't think i ever will. I've been holding on to him anyway that i could just because he was something great i had going for me, a friend, something like a brother. But i've noticed all of the other great people in my life. If he can't understand that i just want to be friends than i guess i don't need him in my life, but i'm hoping it doesn't come to that.
I'm hoping the ending of this very short and uninteresting "fling" isn't the end of a very beautiful friendship.
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