Sometimes i go to my elementary school, just to visit. It's my home, it's what i know. It's where the boys i talk about come from. We all graduated together, and with the others, it feels like family.
Sometimes family betrays you, and sometimes they let their egos get in the way of a good relationship. Now my shoulders are frozen to anyone who's ego begins to freeze over.
I have girl friends, but the one's from elementary school weren't really my friends, with the exception of a few. I don't get along that well with girls, most of my friends are guys, and i'm a girl. I talk about guy stuff with them, and spill secrets from the girl world with them. They tell me secrets about their world too. I don't know what i would do without them. They are my family.
Sometimes i think about how those girls have boys falling into their hands, and gushing between their fingers. Honestly, i can't even be jealous because i'm not that insecure. I laugh at it sometimes. Before, when she was the chubby girl and she was too skinny and she was nothing, they didn't have any confidence. Now people fill their heads and now their heads are too big. Their insecurities still shine through though. I can't help but hope that they finally get rid of those insecurities.
There are only a few things i want in my life right now:
1. success in school
2. a successful job
3. and him..."the first"
I have everything else i could wish for, anything else doesn't really matter.
God, just guide me down the right path to those wishes that are aching for my fingertips.
Amen
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